Day 5: End

Day 5 is coming to an end. And judging by the frequency of my posts, I reckon all of you can guess that I have absolutely no life here.

After meeting the nice Nepalese girl and her sister, when they showed me where to get my groceries, and a little bit of the town, we parted ways. We met at 1030hrs, and went our separate ways at 1300hrs. What else could I do? Carrying those parcels of food and heavy oil and stuff, the best option was to get back to the room. I did just that.

Left the room again soon after and went exploring. But how interesting can it be to explore or walk about town by yourself? Not very. It got so boring that I decided to head back. Seriously, without friends for company, even the most interesting of things will be boring like hell.

The loneliness is unbearable. I cannot imagine more days like this. No! Those who envy me and want to trade places, at this point in time, I'm totally willing to do so. I would rather be back home with friends and family. Seriously, the loneliness was so bad that I teared. Yes, I almost cried because of this terrible cold (Not the physical cold. Actually, today was rather warm. The ice on the river has broken apart. I can see the water flowing again, and ducks on the river.) and lonely place.

I've never felt this bad before. But that's a given. How could I ever be bored or lonely at home? There were always friends to talk with, to shop with, to do stuff with; my music (instruments) to accompany me; my family to comfort me, to support me. I never felt this kind of loneliness before.

And the worst thing? I'm still the introverted person you know so well. I don't go up to people and make small talk. I'm not the most approchable person, I think. How am I able find company here in this cold, foreign land?

To keep myself from feeling bad, the only way is to keep myself busy. I did my laundry, surfed the internet, and posted many many times here (so obvious). I need to find friends, otherwise it's going to be unbearable, and in six months time, I'll be mental.

I seriously do not recommend people to do such a thing by themselves only, especially if they are introverted. Always have a friend with you. Life will be much better. Time will pass much more quickly and the stay will seem to be so much more exciting, much better.

Better days ahead? Cheers...