Mixed Feelings

I'm really glad my family and friends came over, and am looking forward to mid June when another group will come.

But the small progress I made in my work here is irritating me to hell. Stagnation really. The baby steps that I'm taking seem to lead me nowhere or in circles. I can't figure out what to do next. I'm really at a loss of what I should do. There are so many things, so many options, but none seem like the right move. I wish I could figure things out. I've been praying everyday before I leave the apartment for some advances to be made in the work, and I'm tired. In fact, I do not look forward to get to the lab every morning, knowing fully well that the day will end up with me accomplishing nothing.

Presentation on the coming Tuesday. What can I say? Seminar reports and semester reports to write. Work to be done. Plus the possibility of PY fed-exing me some work, which I had previously recommended to be done but the Idiots did not heed my advice until it was too late.

No wonder these days, I find Simple Plan's song 'God Must Hate Me' so appealing. Even though I know real well it's far from the truth.

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Last night
I just wanted to have fun,
to go out with my friends

I took my dad's car
I never thought he would find outbut
I crashed in a wall
Man I'm dead

I guess it's no use,
I'm screwing up every little thing
I ever tried to do
I'm born to lose
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

God must hate me
He cursed me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down
And you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell
and I wanna go home,
I wanna go home

Last night
I had to study for this test
I forgot and man I'm dead
and now my brain is bursting out of, my head
I can't think I can't breathe
once again

I guess it's no use
I'm screwing up
every little thing I ever tried to do
I'm born to lose
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

God must hate me
He cursed me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down
And you can't save me I'm stuck in hell
and I wanna go home
For what in the world
am I supposed to do?
I never did anything to you
So can't you find something else to do?

God must hate me
He cursed me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down
And you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell and

(I wanna go home
God must hate me) x6
You can't save me
God must hate me now

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